Saturday, January 31, 2015

Jesus Books and Late-Night Musings

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Disclaimer: This post isn't as lighthearted as the others, and it may be a bit out of my comfort zone. I am Catholic. Catholics don't usually (ever) talk about religion. I don't usually (ever) talk about religion. But for some reason the time seems right.

The book that inspired this post, Jesus Calling, is a little book that I got from my grandmother before she passed away just a year ago this coming week. It has a devotion/reflection and accompanying bible verses for each day of the year, and has quickly become something that I reach for in times of loneliness, grief, or on generally shitty days. I swear this book knows me, because every time I need some reassurance, that day's message is absolutely on point.

Losing my grandmother has been  one of those wounds that has not healed easily, or at all really. It's one of those things that hits me when I least expect it, as grief is apt to do. She was the kind of woman that was always on the move, always the life of the party (or throwing the party), and had no problem telling you exactly how she felt at any given moment. She was stylish and colorful and full of immeasurable strength. On the day that she passed, here's what  this little book said:
Come to Me for rest and refreshment. The journey has been too much for you, and you are bone-weary. Do not be ashamed of your exhaustion. Instead, see it as an opportunity for Me to take charge of your life.  

Perfect. It just feels right. It feels comforting.

Today was a day of loneliness and general shit. So after I woke up this morning (and life hit me like a sixteen-wheeler) I grabbed the book and flipped to today's reflection. What was today's message?
I am your strength and shield. I plan out each day and have it ready for you, long before you arise from bed. I also provide the strength you need each step of the way.

I think I literally said "THANK YOU" out loud to an empty room. On days like this, we all need a reminder that we are loved and cared for - whether it's through a little Jesus book or not.


  1. I know exactly what you mean. I have it also in the "pink and girly" version. Everyday is spot on.

  2. Proud of you, PDX Belle.